The first day of Summer...2010

Well, it's June 21, 2010. It's the first official day of Summer. And, it already feels like it's August in Georgia. The humidity is a killer. But, at least we aren't experiencing horrific drought situations like we were just two years ago.

I'm feeling kind of blah today. I'm sure it's just a combination of a lot of small things adding up to seem insurmountable.

I haven't been walking as much lately. The heat is crazy at 93º. So, I've been shortening my walks to 2 miles or less. That doesn't make me feel like I'm accomplishing very much. That is certainly a level of frustration.

I did spend the weekend...well, most of it...in North Carolina at my parents'. My father's health is decidedly failing. It's a sad thing to see. But, I'm a firm believer of you reap what you sow...and a part of me has to wonder if this isn't his payback for years of not being a very nice person to his family. I think it's harder, even still, to see how difficult this is for my mother. I don't, honestly, know how to she does all that she does. It's like taking care of a small baby most of the time...only with a teenager's defiance. She's a strong lady, that's a certainty.

I'm sitting here contemplating my life; taking stock of things I'm not happy with and how I can go about putting into motion actions that will change and improve it. I'm, sadly, at a standstill with this part of the train of thought.

I know I have to take things one day at a time. Continue to live my life in the best way that I know how. And, hope for the best. I have been a little slack in my prayers lately. Perhaps that is another issue that is adding angst to my life.

I am deciding to go for a walk after work today along the Greenway. I'm going to walk for more than 2 miles. Maybe that will be my focus and will be the "accomplishment" that I'm needing today.

As for work, things feel slow today. I don't like that. I'd rather have the phones ringing off the hook...and no time at all to even think about a blog, much less updating it. I definitely need to put forth more effort in praying more often and more sincerely. God knows this. I know this. Now, it's up to me to make it happen.

Wish me luck!